The world of internet modeling can throw quite a bit at you, and the messages you're given span an impressive range. You're told (and shown!) about every physical imperfection on your body, and you're praised as though you're supernaturally beautiful. New models can expect to be hit with a slew of mixed messages about what genres they can, or can't, expect to have success in. At this point, I feel that I've established a pretty grounded and realistic view of myself, and of what genres I can shoot well.
I'm quite satisfied with my physical appearance, and the work that I do. I'm open and honest about the fact that I do not have the look of most models, and that I will never be a commercial or fashion model. So far as I can tell, I'm one of the very very few women in American society who doesn't have any major points of insecurity in regards to appearance. I certainly haven't always been so self-assured, but at this point, I am.
What I find fascinating is how people respond when I get an honest assessment of myself. When I say something like, "I really don't have the body type for glam work" (I mean, pit hair and A cups? C'mon.) or "I couldn't get signed by an agency if I tried" (I'm 5'2" and all the clear skin in the world won't change that), many act as though I'm criticizing myself. Neither of those are statements of insecurity. They are statements of fact. And they're facts that I'm okay with!
Again, I'm quite satisfied with my appearance. I also know that it is not an appearance with universal appeal. That's fine! I would much rather have an honest assessment of myself, know what I'm good at, and rock out at that, than spend an eternity pining for something different. And hey- on the rare occasion that a photographer does hire me to shoot fashion (or fashion nudes, as is more often the case), I'm happy to rock that out, too. But I have no illusions that any of those gigs will lead to the cover of Vogue. And that's just fine by me.